I’m really having a hard time lately, being away from my children. I’ve always been a stay-at-home mom until just recently and it’s starting to break my heart to leave them every morning. I know they are in capable hands, in fact, our sitter just loves the boys and they absolutely love her. I know she is doing an excellent job but in my heart, it’s a job I should be doing. For years I wondered what it would be like to be a working mom, to contribute to the family’s income, to feel needed. But now I feel like I’m missing out on so much more than any job, besides being mommy, could offer me.
My youngest is at home sick and I’m not there to wipe his nose, pat him on the back, and hold him. Isn’t that what I’m supposed to do? Besides, no one can do it quite like mommy and my baby doesn’t have me when he needs me the most…
Louise says
Awww, it is very hard to change from being home with them to going to work. I can’t imagine how your heart is aching, but you know they are strong and will be fine with out you, and the time you are together should be even more special and concentrated on each other. I hope. HUGS…
Brandy says
Oh I hear you! I remember the first time I was away from my first born and I wept more than she did! She had a great in home babysitter and I knew she was in great hands but still I missed her dearly!
You will be okay .. I know you will and he will too! ((HUGS to you Mama))
PinchingAbe says
You’ll be fine… it just takes a while. I couldn’t bear to leave my daughter for the first time when she was 6 weeks old. I called — a lot — and over time, I was able to figure out a balance. They were nice enough not to tell me if she crawled or sat up there and instead let me discover those milestones on my own.
Hang in there 🙂 It gets better with time.
stacy says
i’m sorry, dear! that must be difficult. i only know it (mostly) from the sitter perspective being that i watch kiddos, too. i’ve helped a few different 12mo olds and their moms adjust to daycare life. it’s a tough first few weeks. it will get easier for you all! but you’ll always be Mom even if you’re not right there for everything.
((hugs))
Katy M says
Hang in there. You and the kids will be fine. If your heart is telling you to go home- go home.
Delia says
It is the hardest job…s-a-h-m and a part of me wants to go back to work too. I just don’t know how I could leave my 2…and I’m so lucky that I don’t HAVE to. It would be nice to use a different skill set and converse with adults now and then 🙂
Jennifer kimberly says
yikes, i understand.. After a year home with my daughter i am ready to go back to work. I feel bad because she is my only child and i feel like i am going to “miss”something that she does.
Andra Harter says
Awww! What a sweet post! I’m sure it’s hard being away from them! I can’t even imagine what it would be like. I don’t have kids, but I love kids and I have quite a few that are dear to me and when I go a week without seeing one of them I go a little batty. LOL
Eileen says
I’m just catching up on some reads here and found this one stood out to me. I was a stay at home mom, did jobs at home, then went back to school. It was harder on me than them. When I went to work I felt like i had to do it all and BE it all. sometimes you have to delegate to others…even in the mommy love dept. My sitter was so sweet and huggy to my kids. I ended up with some serious health issues that cause me to have to give up my job. I am home with my kids now 24/7 for the past 8 years. I know they feel security and love but sometimes must feel mothersmothered. I am sure you feel sad, anyone would. It’s all about adapting for them AND YOU! Thank goodness most companies are in tune with families and will allow you to be home with kids when sick, without job jeopardy. You will always feel that tug but you are still a great mom for what you are doing for them even when not there WITH them!
Sherrie Cruson says
You sound like a great mom and your going through the motions of guilt working away from your little ones. It happens to all working moms. I was a single working mom for years and didn’t stop working till I remarried and both my sons were in high school, At the time, I was struggling to make ends meet and felt that same tinge of guilt and remorse over not being home with my kids. ((HUGS))
nickie says
I’m still a stay at home and dreading living my son at daycare. He probaly wont even mind being seperated from me 🙂 Stay strong
deanna says
Your children can’t ALWAYS have you there even though you want to always BE there. It’s ok. It doesn’t mean you love them any less.
xoxoxo